I’ve walked to the well, an “awakening”. In a perfect world, bells should have been ringing!
I didn’t walk willingly to the well, I didn’t even know it was a well, it was a hole… A bottomless pit and I fell in head first. My whole world was out of control and I couldn’t stop it! Why didn’t I have the power to change the unchangeable? Once I accepted the things I could not change my free fall ended and I found the bottom! It was still absolutely horrible but at least I was standing on firm ground again, albeit in a hole. I had to choose… Should I ask for a shovel and keep on digging or climb out? Who would’ve heard me? Then it hit me… I’m angry! I’m mad as hell! Funny thing, I didn’t know who or what I was angry at. It was pure frustration that was making me angry and that’s when I began to climb out of the hole. My life came flooding back to me… filling that hole. In truth, it was never gone, I was blinded by frustration, self imposed isolation and self-pity…a buffet of misery. A new experience for me.
You have probably noticed that I have not told you what caused all of this… Because it doesn’t really matter what causes an epiphany, what’s important is that we have them and let them transform us into better people. I was transformed by near blindness or a better, more true, way to say it is, I was given a new and exciting adventure. I am a better person because of it. As corny as it sounds, I am deeper because of it. If it had been a movie, bells would have been ringing! There would have been a choir of heavenly voices!
When I climbed out of that hole, I realized I was standing at the well.
Bells are an important part of my life, doorbells, the ringing of my phone, that wonderful tinkle of ascending bells from my WordPress Android app. The bells are ringing because another human being is there. Sometimes it’s a bearer of good news and sometimes bad. As long as the bells are ringing I am NOT isolated. Ring! I am a seasoned “player” and ready for the game.
I want to be connected, I want to ring bells and I want to hear bells ringing.
Bells ringing from the wellhead. Bells ringing so loud they can be heard from the highest mountain to the deepest hole.
Thank you for being here, thank you for ringing my bell.